me? a fitness inspiration? you having a laugh?

A friend of mine told me at the weekend that I was his girlfriend�s fitness idol, now he was pretty drunk so he may have been lying, but either way I was pretty flattered.  But it got me thinking about my attitude towards health and fitness, and how I�ve made it work for me.  I think I probably give off the impression that I eat cleaner than clean, and I just can�t wait to get going with my next workout, at least that�s what my Instagram pics might look like�if you read the comments,  you�d realise that�s far from true.

So here�s a little confession, I hate running, I�m sure I sweat more than the average person, 90% of my workouts I don�t want to do, and I only photograph the healthy food, the snacks and treats I have? Yeah I keep those to myself.

 I�ve become a bit of a Instagram junkie of late, and you can see by looking at who I follow that it�s a mix of super fit �bodies to die for� types and then people more like myself who are on a journey of health and fitness showing progress pics, their own healthy made up meals, and post workout frazzled faces.  Both of these inspire me in very different ways, there�s the perfect beach bods that make me want to keep at it in the hope that one day I might look like that, and then there�s everyone else and actually these are the most inspiring and motivating, if they can do it, and stick at it, then why can�t I?

 I guess what I�m trying to say is, it isn�t easy, sometimes I wonder why I�m still sticking with it, I have to drag my ass to the classes and I regularly think I�m going to throw up, or actually just pass out and die, yep that thought usually runs through my head at least once during my combat classes.  While I enjoy healthy food, I also really, really love junk food, if I didn�t put weight on so easily I wouldn�t think twice about cheese and mayonnaise filled baguettes for lunch, dirty greasy burgers and fries for dinner, followed by ALL of the chocolate and ice cream filled milkshakes, I�d even throw a Maccy D�s in there occasionally, so it really is an effort for me to eat the way I do 5 days a week (weekends I eat whatever the hell I want).

 But, and there is a but, there is a plus side to it all, I�m SO much fitter than I�ve ever been in my life, I can run for an hour without stopping, admittedly hating every minute, but I can still do it, I can walk up flights of stairs without getting out of breath, and I�m starting to be able to hold some bad-ass yoga moves.  I�m developing a booty when I used to have a pancake bum, and I actually really like the look of my toned arms, and on really good days, with A LOT of tensing I can see little signs of abs

And actually all of those things are better than the lazy, sofa loving person I was before, and on a more serious note, when your dad gets diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, you suddenly realise just how important your health is, and maybe it�s time to start looking after your own body.

And on that last final note, it's now only 10 days until I take part in Total Warrior, I'm raising money for pancreatic cancer, and if you'd like to sponsor me (which I'd HUGELY appreciate) then you can, just over here.